Was it all in my head?
During the relationship, or as I refer to it as the “Situationship” many things happen, the memories are only bits and pieces and not all with a warm fuzzy feeling.
You were emotionally and physically exhausted and your health was suffering, as well as your mood.
You felt alone, isolated, and miserable, constantly jumping through hoops to please them or simply to keep the peace, only that felt like a never-ending battle.
Once you either find the courage and inner strength to leave, or you were discarded. You begin to go through the may stages of grief, because in a sense, it was a death.
You begin to realize how much you allowed yourself to put up with the disrespect, the lies, empty promises, and cheating. The list goes on.
Bit by bit you will find that some memories come back, thankfully, not all at once!
The realization of the mental abuse causes you to feel ashamed, embarrassed, and of course anger, all completely normal reactions.
So much of your life was stolen from you. It’s realized now that it was all a lie.
The other realization was that how you treated people and how you were treated made you, not yourself. The Abuse made you a shell of your former self.
Now you understand, you were manipulated, isolated from your Family, Friends and picked apart by the Narcissist. You felt as if you were walking on eggshells, never knowing what kind of mood you were about to face.
Now, it is time to shift the focus to you, and your mental and physical health. Reconnect with friends and family. Go to counseling, maybe even keep a journal, and start a hobby. All the things you could not do while you were with the Narcissist.
Now go take back your independence!
Below is a video by NarcDaily his videos are very informative and have helped me as well.
The Narcissistic Fog
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